A colleague stopped by my office today to say that he'd scheduled another committee meeting and so would miss being at the committee meeting I chair. As he told me, he doesn't know what we're doing at the meeting anyway, so it's not important. Right?
Except we all agreed to finish certain tasks X by several days before that meeting so that I can get copies made and we can all read those and make some decisions based on the tasks we've completed.
So, do I send out a reminder about Tasks X to the committee, or do I count on them as adults to do the work they agreed to do?
Because really, I don't have the time or patience to infantalize other adults. I want to whack my head against the wall. Hard.
I've been desperately prepping for one class, a play I've never taught before. My office hours aren't until this afternoon.
One of my first year students in another class stopped by to get some paper from me so she could print out the work due in class (in 40 minutes). I don't have a printer in my office, and I don't have printer paper, sorry.
I turned back to my work, and she started asking me about my day, and telling me about hers.
And dang, I was short with her. I'm pissed at myself now, because now she's probably feeling all unhappy that a prof she was brave enough to come see was short with her. GAH! I want to whack my head on a wall.
There's this boundary thing that's hard to articulate. I'm happy to talk to students during my office hours, and I purposefully don't do things that can't be easily interrupted during those times. But if I'm reading and taking notes, and it's not office hours, then I probably don't want to chat.
It's hard to balance the "being accessible" part with the "I'm desperately busy right now" part.
I sometimes feel totally overwhelmed by things to do and underwhelmed by my ability to do them well. Now is one of those times.